dan abernathy - contributing to the chaos

january 29, 2008

Washing The Day Away

I have been working on the story trying to explain the importance and the meaning behind my ritual Washing The Day Away. It is truly the most phenomenal thing that I do. Now, in these dormant winter days I am longing for the feeling I captured every night when I opened my mind wiping it clean from the negative forces that try so hard to change us

january 28, 2008

Live Life Hard

Through all the unpleasantness of swimming in the waters of society, and lately player their nasty game, I have not been myself. I doubt I will ever know who I really am. I will leave that examination to the speculators examining me after I have left this world.
What I have realized is that with all this whoring I'm doing with society, I have been consuming mass quantities of food in an attempt to fill an emotional emptiness. It is time to stop! It is time to stop poising my whole self with consumer products. I have slipped a bit, but thank the spirits that there is a knot on the end of the rope. With out it we might slip into oblivion. I have been letting what I am doing take precedence over who I am. I have to trust my feelings and indulge in who I am. I have to listen to and respond to my whole self, my spiritual needs as well as my bodily needs and desires. I can play the game, but I cannot loose focus, nor forget that it is just a game.
I am an artist and I am comfortable in saying that. I also know that being an artist is a unique and dangerous choice to make. It is a choice I can live with as will as the choice I have made to live life. Life has to be more then to just life. Living is not enough. I want to live hard. - dba

Even in the misery of winter you can still find some pleasing things to shoot. Seldom does a day pass without me making an image of something. Now that I have passed, and you all have lived through, my mini obsession with animated gifs I'm just going to be posting my photographs, unless I change my mind. Which seems to be happening more often then not!

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january 22, 2008

The Out Clause

   Are we in control? I think we as a people can not only say no, we can say FUCK NO! We are the people, for the people, and by the people, but the last thing we have is any type of control by the people. The airwaves are heating up with politics and candidates scrambling to the trough in a feeding frenzy of who is going to do what for us.
   In actuality, none of them are really going to do anything. None of them really care about the people and they sure as hell, are not for the people. The needs and wants of the people are just used as a stepping stool for their own agenda. The only platform they will always be true too, is the one for betterment of there selves.
   If you do not believe this, look at all the past candidates. What has their tenure in office done? On a personal level who have we felt their actions? I don't really know about you, but for me, I have not felt shit. If their actions have helped you then great, but I think that you should really look at how they have helped. I mean really scrutinize their actions and how it affected your life and I beat you will see the same that I see, nothing.
   We are the people, governed by the people, but we are not. In actuality there has always been an out clause for our elected officials. Our founding fathers new how to play the game of control and manipulation. For any of us to think we are governed by the people, you have bought into the game, the scam that has been played on you for hundreds of years.
   We are governed by big business, corporations that have become more powerful than any government could wish for. To obscure there identity these corporations hide behind the elected puppets in government. But, don't be mislead it is corporate America that runs the show. They pull the strings without any real accountability. - dba

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january 22, 2008

I do not like to ask anyone to do something that I would not do, or have done myself. I thought it was time for me to answer the 23 Questions. I have been getting feed back from both the readers and the people that have answered them and it has been very positive. I had a lot of fun answering them, it was reveling and a skip down memory line. Now I feel more than ever that this is a positive project to be part of. - dba

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january 19, 2008

Noteworthy and just in: Orson Welles documented on film applauding this sudo blog, he said everyone should be part of the chaos.

Fearing the New

   Why do people, the majority of people have such a fear of the unknown and something that is new? Why are they afraid to try something different, or new? We have become programmed to live in a comfort zone, a zone that has been depicted for us by others. We have been flooded by this orchestrated lifestyle for so long that we have drowned the notion of freedom and the desire to fallow our own path. Our dreams have become nothing more than a non-achievable fantasy that is lived in silence. For most they will only flourish in the minds of the dreamers, staying there safely into the grave. We may live vicariously through others, the ones that are bold enough to come alive and be there selves, but we fear the ridicule to step out on our own safety zone. We have accepted this displaced lifestyle where the choices have been made for us, so why try anything new.
    As a society we have bent to the expectations of others and not allowed to fallow our true being. We have been told what the comfort zone is, what is the right behavior is and pressed hard to not step out of it. If we show signs of freedom of choice and individuality we are ridiculed and labeled an eccentric, a freak, or a failure.

"Men grind and grind in the mill of a truism, and nothing comes out but what was put in. But the moment they desert the tradition for a spontaneous thought, then poetry, wit, hope, virtue, learning anecdote, all flock to their aid." - 1838 Literary Ethics Ralph Waldo Emerson

   Living is not gone. It is never too late to bloom with pure life and make your dreams come alive. If and when you do start trying the new, questioning the mundane and stepping out of the mold of how we are supposed to live our lives, a whole world opens and the true being of who we are starts to bloom.
    We need to embrace the new and different, find out for ourselves what is good, bad and what might work for you as an individual. Try something new, were some outrageous cloths, order something on the menu that you have never heard of before, run naked in the woods. It does not mater what you do, just do something that is you, just be alive. Find out who you are, what you are and do not worry about what you find, just find it. You have to live your life for who you are, no mater who you are might be. - dba

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january 15, 2008
You think we have a housing problem here, or maybe you just don't get along with your neighbors. With the exception of our snow banks, it could be worse.

Iraq Apartments For Lease

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january 14, 2008

I'm one of them,

one of the Men That Don't Fit In.

Robert W. Service wrote a poem, in 1907 entitled, The Men That Don't Fit In. If there ever was some prose written on a piece of parchment paper that draws a straight line to me, it is this poem. Service wrote many great pieces and never lost his wonder lust. He passed on in 1958, the year I was born. When I pass this is what I want read over me.

The Men That Don't Fit In
There's a race of men that don't fit in,
    A race that can't stay still;
So they break the hearts of kith and kin,
    And they roam the world at will.
They range the field and they rove the flood,
    And they climb the mountain's crest;
Theirs is the curse of the gypsy blood,
    And they don't know how to rest.

If they just went straight they might go far;
    They are strong and brave and true;
But they're always tired of the things that are,
    And they want the strange and new.
They say: "Could I find my proper groove,
    What a deep mark I would make!"
So they chop and change, and each fresh move
    Is only a fresh mistake.

And each forgets, as he strips and runs
    With a brilliant, fitful pace,
It's the steady, quiet, plodding ones
    Who win in the lifelong race.
And each forgets that his youth has fled,
    Forgets that his prime is past,
Till he stands one day, with a hope that's dead,
    In the glare of the truth at last.

He has failed, he has failed; he has missed his chance;
    He has just done things by half.
Life's been a jolly good joke on him,
    And now is the time to laugh.
Ha, ha! He is one of the Legion Lost;
    He was never meant to win;
He's a rolling stone, and it's bred in the bone;
    He's a man who won't fit in.

Robert W. Service

   Try as I might to fit in I just don't seem to be able to. I can play the game for a while, but sooner or later I fall from grace and once again embrace the true person that I am. When this realization happens, and I see myself doing the things that are not who I am, I feel a deep emptiness in my soul.
   When I speak of fitting in, I mean fitting into this so called normal and comfortable mold that society has created for everyone to be normal and comfortable in. It is a mold die-cut out of boredom, one that has no feeling of threat by change, or an individual corrector that may frighten others. This form of normality only thrives is in the eyes of others. In the eyes and soul of those that do not fear standing alone and free from the confines of normality, it is a prison.
   Fitting in to who you are is finding yourself and setting yourself free. At the very least you should never give up the journey to find this true person, the person that you really are. It might not even be possible to find the true you on the current level you are living at. Maybe this life is just a stepping stone, a path of learning to better prepare you for the next level. Whatever the course may be don't give in to the pressure put on us, and stay true to your own true self.
   Finding your true self is just the first part of the quest. Living who you are, is even harder. Once you know how to make your world right and attack the problems of setting the wheel in motion for the inevitable course of change, prepare yourself for ridicule and even slander. You are becoming an individual, something the masses fear most. - dba

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january 12, 2008
Sometimes you find something that is so sick and wrong that you can't pass it up and it actually might make you laugh. I find while looking for the end of the internet and had to share it with everyone.

We are all the same

No mater what catastrophic event is happening in the world, no natural disaster, plague, famine or war, alters who we are, we are all the same. It does not mater what faith we believe in, or what religion we practice, we are all the same. It does not mater what we want for ourselves or for others we are the same. It does not mater how we control greed, hate, and pity we are the same. It does not mater how we hold each other in our arms, or how we love each other we are all the same. No mater how much of an individual we are, how we look, or how unique our persona is, even how personally different we are, we are all the same. We all feel sadness, sorrow and pain. We all feel happiness, joy and love. It does not mater what country we live in or what language we speak, laughing and crying are the same. - dba

Noteworthy

Vegansexuality

Forget homo-, bi- or even metro-: the latest prefix in sexuality is vegan-, as in "vagansexual." In a study released in May, Annie Potts, a researcher at the University of Canterbury and a director of the New Zealand Center for Human-Animal Studies, surveyed 157 vegans and vegetarians (120 of them women) on the topic of cruelty-free living. The questions ranged from attitudes about eating meat to keeping pets to wearing possum fur to, yes, "cruelty-free sex" - that is, "rejecting meat eaters as intimate partners."
   Some of the survey respondents volunteered their reluctance to kiss meat eaters. "I couldn't think of kissing lips that allow dead animal pieces to pass between them," a 49-year-old vegan woman from Auckland said. For some, the resistance is the squeamishness factor. "Non-vegetarian bodies smell different to me," a 41-year-old Christchurch vegan woman said. "They are, after all, literally sustained through carcasses - the murdered flesh of others." For some, it is a question of finding a like-minded life partner. An Auckland ovo-vegetarian had tried a relationship with a carnivore, but reported that despite the sexual attraction, the gulf in "shared values and moral codes" was just too wide.
   Potts, who coined the term vegansexuality, says the "negative response of omnivores" to her study has surprised her. Even some fellow animal lovers question the wisdom of vegansexuality. A blog for People for the Ethical Treatment of Animals noted that sleeping with only fellow vegans means forgoing the opportunity to turn carnivores into vegans by the most powerful recruiting tool available - sex. _ Jeff Stryker
   I found this article and after I chuckled to myself I wondered, how this movement would affect oral sex in the non-meat eating society? I don't think it would be much fun to be with anyone if they were that apposed to handling meat!

New Road Kill Photo

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january 5, 2008
I always thought I was pretty laid-back and really worry much. If you are a good person things work themselves out. I guess I was wrong. I must worry a bit and keep it bundled up inside. I know money, moving the coffee shop and keeping everyone happy has been weighing heavy on my mind, but I never thought I would come down with a stress related illness. I did though, I got a case of shingles. Let me tell you something else. They Suck! I got over them and lucky for me, and the people that come into the coffee shop it was not on my face. What it did do though is attack my immune system and now I seam to be getting every bug that is flouting around. Again this sucks as I do not get sick, or so I thought. This dark street I'm on right now has made posting new chaos a bit slow. Hopefully everything will be getting back to normal soon.

Oral B

I did find this little bit of useless information about Oral B that I thought was to good to let go. I don't understand why Procter & Gamble are upset. I think they should get on the bandwagon and use it to sell more of their Oral Bs. What they did though was have their representing lawyers send a 66 page cease-and-desist letter to British sex toy company Love Honey, demanding that it stop using images of its Oral B electric toothbrushes to promote a product called the Brush Bunny - a rabbit shaped piece of plastic that slips over the top of an Oral B to turn it into a vibrator. I think it is just a better way to promote oral hygiene.

Here is a new Road Kill image for your sick minds to look at. Not the white mixed into the red. That would be marbling. It was below zero and it froze to the highway making unique design patterns for the morbid mind.

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december 31, 2007

Happy New Year

This is the last posting for 2007. So with it I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year. I hope that 2008 will bring nothing but happiness and contentment to each and everyone.
   With that said I want to give everyone something to wast just a little more gray matter. The people across the pond have come up with a new idea to stomp on tan lines. I find this ironic, as there is not enough sun in England to really worry about the issue. Be that as it may the new C-String has been launched
   "When I try on an evening dress, I am impressed," says Alice Smellie in the Daily Mail. "Normally I can see the smallest of thongs, but with the C-String nothing is visible, and the dress does look more elegant than usual."
   UK exclusive! Kiss good-bye to panty-lines and tan-lines with the incredible C-String Invisible Underwear! The C-String is a completely new and exciting innovation in lingerie. It fits your figure with no need for side-straps!

How does it work?
   C-String has a flexible internal frame that hugs and holds it to the body both securely and comfortably. Your modesty remains safely covered at all times. At the front it looks like sexy underwear, to the rear it has a thong-style strip, and to the sides it has nothing at all!
   Out and about: the C-String can be worn under all your favorite clothes: dresses, skirts, jeans. On the beach: the C-String can be worn alone as beachwear for the perfect all-round tan. Forget the bikini the C-Kini is where it is at! In the bedroom: the C-String is ultra-sexy lingerie!
   If you are still having a time understanding this concept, think about the flexible headbands wore by young girls since the 50’s. So I guess this is just another knock off.

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december 28, 2007

Lets all have a small moment of silence for Paris Hilton. She is only going to get around $5,000,000.00 from the Hilton Estate. Going to have to cut back her life style a bit Paris, it's going to be tough out there! The news said you cried. After hearing what you lost, although it was something that you really never had, I understand why you let the tears flow.

Sometimes I Wonder

Sometimes I wonder why I allow myself to believe in the illusion that I can ever be truly happy. I'm not sure if we ever achieve total happiness. Maybe it is reached in the journey towards this goal, not necessarily in reaching it. It is not that I am unhappy, because I am a happy person. My discontentment derives from knowing I'm not being true to my heart.
I wonder if it is all worth it. We beat ourselves up trying to but life together and for why. Where does it take us, and what are we sacrificing to live the dream that we are programmed to want, forgetting, or putting on hold until it is to late, the one that is in our heart, our true destiny.
   My goal for the immediate future is to complete a plan, a financial plan that is not really who I am. It is not being true to my heart, but I have to be committed to completing it. When I simplify the reasons I can almost justify the means. Build the business up to sell, so I can find the island that awaits me. The one I think about everyday. It is said that we think about sex every waking hour of every day. I'm sure that is true from my own mind, but I also think of finding my island every hour. I also find great satisfaction in creating a third place for the people. They need it and I want to provide it. I have to sacrifice my true being for a while, but I would be creating something good for others to enjoy.
    I have been quoted many times as saying, 'I was a good bum.' A play on a phrase, which meant I had no ties and was free. The problem is now I want to be a better bum, a true vagabond. I'm planning the future right to be this vagabond, and doing so in my own unique style. My life is basically simple and I take great pride in what I do and who I am. Being me is all I want to be, and like I have said many times, "being me is a full time job."
I know where to look for my true self, and for now the journey is my illusion of happiness, but it is only an illusion. I will not let the real plan fade away but rather work towards it. I might be better off being content with what life throws at me, but that wouldn't be much fun.
    So my life is complex and I want simplicity, complex simplicity, what a meaningful statement when we think about it. Things are always more complicated than they seem, but at the same time they're also always far simpler. It just depends on how we choose to look at them. Examine everything to death and get distracted by the same day-to-day annoying problems, turn everything into a crisis --- and life becomes impossibly complex.
   Focus on what is really important to you --- and life is suddenly simple. What we have to remember is, what we worry about is usually unworthy of our worry. Focus on the simple and the complex will take care of itself. Relax and be alert, but don't worry about what others think. Be true to yourself. dba

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